March 2011
i kind of just want this weekend to get the fuck here so i can get trashed and high to temporarily forget about my worries. i hope i get a new phone friday and then chill with my boys. saturday i’m going to go to the hookah bar with my ladies for gab’s birthday and then hopefully i’ll be getting so messed up that night. sunday will be recovery day :)
sometimes loving you hurts.
i need a cuddle buddy.
February 2011
i want a job again. softball is great and all but it just stresses me out. working actually puts me in a good mood because i know i’m making money. the only reason i am even playing softball this school season is for my mom. i hope she really appreciates this because i have lost my passion for softball. sure, i will always give 110% but it’s not the same 110% i used to give because i...
i didn’t do half the homework that is due tomorrow. honestly though, i took the most ridiculous classes this semester and this entire school year, really. i am bored with the classes i am taking. i just like literature because of course, i have always loved literature but my teacher is absolutely amazing. she’s been all over the world and has so much wisdom that she shares with us. i...
i just realized i have met a shit ton of new...
i don’t intend on stopping either. it’s crazy how many different kinds of people i have hung out with over the years. hell, even over the weeks. i have expanded my horizons. i like it. i like it a lot.
i just love fighting with hailey. not. good weekend turned to shit all because of tonight. i hope i will be able to sleep tonight and not stay up all night stressing about our fight.
i love my babe!
she’s everything i want in a lifetime partner and more. i want to marry her so bad. i don’t know why i’m thinking about this and posting it on tumblr but i am. i was thinking about marriage last night with andrew and i’d be a good as shit wife. for real, i would. i’m so good at house work when i want to be. i love taking care of others. i love just chillin’ and...
fuck humanity
haha man i just got home. i pulled an all nighter with andrew and smug up to 9:00 AM. ahahhahahhaqhaahahaha had a deep asss talk with andrew that last basically ALLL NIGHT LONG. unforgettable. dude i honestly don’t even think i need anyone else right now. i got all i need. my mom, andrew, hailey, mrs. michelle, and myself. i, of course, love mad other people but the people i named above are...
i’m waiting for my asshole of a brother to get out of the shower so i can shower. i’ve been sitting here thinking about so much while i’m waiting. i have so much doubt in many things i care about. i know what’s meant to be will happen but i just have a feeling i won’t even remotely like what is meant to be.
on another note, it’s not fair that we have to wait...
i was going to empty everything from my room today but softball has left me hurting everywhere so i’m just going to nap until 3. then i must shower & ready myself up for kate’s little birthday thaaang at the journey household. then i’m going to do crafts with mrs. michelle. then i’ll be going on another adventure with andrew. hopefully we’ll get our hands on some...
i’m pretty fucking lonely. all i really want to do right now is cuddle and kiss a cute girl. not just any cute girl either. i haven’t talked to my love pretty much all day. i am craving some physical attention but all i can do is imagine us together for now. one day i will be able to hold you in my arms and kiss you gently. i long for your touch, babe. i miss you so fucking much.
i finally cried today. i let it all out. i’ve decided i’m not happy with who i am right now. i’m actually quite disappointed in myself. tomorrow i am taking everything out of my room and reorganizing it. i’m also getting a new queen sized bed, hopefully. i plan to also repaint my room. i want to paint a colorful sun on my ceiling, a black tree on one of my walls, and...
smiling so harrrrrrd for you, babe
it’s kind of ridiculous how much in love i am right now. i’m getting the attention i need from the girl i love. i cannot wait until i get to hold her in my arms this summer. i will probably never ever let go of her. i cannot wait to kiss her everywhere. i cannot wait to run my fingers through her hair. i cannot wait to whisper my feelings towards her into her ear. i cannot wait to hold...
i don't know why but i feel like crying.
i’m taking a risk on you again. please don’t hurt me anymore. we’ve been through so much together and there’s absolutely no one i’d rather be with. i want to be the one you can depend on and i need you to be the one i can depend on too. it takes two to make a relationship so i need you to put in as much effort as you can and i’ll do the same. you know i love you...
